Sunday, August 1, 2010

Murphy's Law (A.K.A. Alicia's Law)

So yesterday was day 4 of Follisitim & Menopur. I had an U/S & bloodwork in the morning. My U/S tech said that my follicles weren't quite measurable yet but they were getting close. Yesterday around 4 p.m. one of the nurses from my clinic called & said my Estrodial (E2) level was high 656. She said they wanted to take me off the Follistim & see me back for monitoring the following morning.

I went this morning for day 5 U/S & BW. I had about 6 follicles that were measuring in around 10, 11, & 12. I asked the tech if this was a bad thing? She said that it isn't necesarily a bad thing but that I may be responding quickly to the stims. Hopefully my E2 returns to an acceptable level & I don't hyperstim.

More than that I am terrified of this cycle failing. I keep telling my DH I don't know what I will do if it doesn't work this time. What if my cycle get's cancelled because my body is stupid? I am filled with the "What Ifs" & it's driving me crazy. Please continue to think of me during this cycle!

4 comments:

  1. thank you for blogging about your experience.

    my husband and i were married the same day you were! and funny enough, our first ivf cycle is just a few days off from yours. i will start my stim medication in four days--on lupron now. you've inspired me to start my own blog to track this process--as a therapeutic way to express my feelings. like you, i feel that so much is riding on this and can't begin to imagine the devastation i'll feel if it doesn't work.
    keeping my fingers crossed for us both.

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  2. I can remember how I felt when I was in your shoes. Best advice would be if you have questions ASK THEM!! Ask your Dr., Nurse, U/S tech, online friends... I am fairly timid but I have learned to find my voice! I am excited for you & if you ever have questions or want to talk you can always ask me.

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  3. I am thinking of you guys! Try to be as positive as you can. Chase those thoughts away. The worry does not affect the outcome at all! Hugs!

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  4. Thanks for your comment! How exciting that you're in your 2WW with 2 awesome blastocysts! You'll have to post an update soon so that I know how you're doing. Good luck!!!

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