More updates & the bad news continues

Re called me this mornign while I was in the walmart parking lot gearing up for tonights snow storm. He told me that Embie #1 is growing appropriately & is at the 8 cell stage, Embie #2 is at the 7 cell stage (a little behind), Embie #3 is stuck at 4 cells & not growing.

The Dr. said he doesn't feel comfortable continuing on at this point because our embies still need to be tested for RB. With only 1 growing at an appropriate rate he doesn't think it's finincially sound to do the genetic testing.

His plan; stop all my current meds, freeze the 2 embies that are still growing, start again in April.

Me, I am a big fucking wreck! We had to beg & borrow just to pay for this cycle ($11,000) Meds ($2,700) & genetic testing ($6,000). I don't know if we will be bale to pay for another cycle in April. I don;t want to be so far in the hole that we can;t afford to spoil our little one rotten. Emotionally, I feel so let down & disappointed. Throughout this cycle everyone I encountered has been extremely optimistic about my cycle resulting in a healthy pregnancy. I am at my lowest bottom. Please send prayers & thoughts mine & hubbys way.